| So the question arises, what is to be made conscious? One knows of gurus in India who, after years of study and practice, can control their heartbeats, their breathing, their digestive system. They can even manifest being in two places at the same time. But this is a mighty task. The first task for becoming conscious is to uncover those parts of ourselves that we have covered up over the process of our childhood and growing up. Imagine that you essentially came into this life as pure light and love without an ego or a self identify. The process of being born and then being dependent on others for survival slowly brings about a sense of self which we call the ego. For the great percentage of people this process of childhood and dependency is one of being removed further and further of any sense of being a pure being of light until any sense of that is completely gone from conscious memory. One begins to develop an identity based on what one is told about oneself, the kind of responses one gets to one's expression and traumatic events. This identity or ego is not based in reality, that is, not on the truth that we are whole and complete beings, but based on the idea of limitation depending on our experiences. Many of us had the experiences that told us whether directly or indirectly that we were somehow bad, dirty, unacceptable, unworthy, unforgivable or somehow and some way lacking in good character. This is the basis of shame. The message of shame is that somehow my being is not good enough. There is some sense of failure or lack or badness about me. Vibrationally what is happening is that the conscious mind, the ego, has cut off the experience of being pure light. By using a number of processes available it has "forgotten" it's true nature by lowering the vibration of what it sees in itself. Shame means to cover, to hide from view. The difference between shame and guilt is that with guilt we try to hide from the public view and with shame we try to hide from the public and ourselves. For the experience of shame is intolerable even though no one else knows about it. Shame is an epidemic in some ways. The contraction of man's view of himself is now part of most cultures and belief systems, so that even if your family didn't shame you, you probably grew up in a culture that did. The process of becoming aware and conscious requires uncovering or bringing to the light the shame which prevents us from experiencing our true selves. This means making the shame messages conscious, knowing how we tell ourselves we are less than God. This is a painful process sometimes and requires replacing shame with love for ourselves. This is difficult to do on one's own for sometimes one needs to experience another's love before they can allow their own love for themselves to be experienced. Know that every one of you is loved by someone or you would not be alive today. Find that love, acknowledge it, absorb it, allow it, get to know what it means and feels like to be loved. Understand that it is only your beliefs and shame that make you feel unlovable. You are as lovable as anyone else and in fact you are only love and loving. Remember that your goal is to remember your true self, pure love and light which lies beneath the shame. You are uncovering and bringing into the light all of you for that which you cover keeps you from fully experiencing your true, glorious self. |
